I see all this in such a different way..

My life has been the same except for a few creative impulses. Nothing new to inform people on. We have been just hanging out, Cheebs gets moody when i'm happy and silly sometimes and that causes arguments shes such a cute little pessimist she even just assumed that i was wrighting an angry response. I'm still better than usual cause we have gotten to spend more time together as opposed to just wake, work, tv, sleep whitch was getting a bit monotonous. Plus we are watching more new movies and i'm listening to a bunch of new podcasts in fact i'm trying to keep a list of what i watch we have been really active with our Netflix, and the snow is finally clearing away in time for another major storm to roll in.

Lately Cheebs has been thinking about getting a house and possible wedding options. No, we are not officially engaged but she seems to be fixated I guess shes feeling old or left behind I don't get it. The one thing that bugs me is all the freaking wedding shows are cookie cutter stupid like the people featured on them... and mind numbing... and possibly brain washing her its ok maby they will be a sufficient outlet for her and most of the time i just tune them out and do somthing else.

she has the house issue i don't know how her plans are going to pan out and i'm scared of going farther in debit she already convinced me to buy the ipod on an apple credit card. I'm sad to hear she needs some space soon i'm enjoying the cozy. The lease goes to the end of next January, so I'll see what she come up with by the end of November i'd love to have/own/or build(awesome) a place but i hate the idea of being chained to a morgage on a normal type place. Maby by summer, we'll have a better idea or find somthing really cool strange structure to live in that more suitably expresses me as a person. its really hard tho I'd like to live around here where odd places are scarce and and the property taxes are expensive. So who knows. Maybe we'll win the lottery or she'll come up with a million dollar idea and we'll be able to buy the crazy museum/library looking place in manyunk and build in a garage cause i know that's one of her goals(no street parking).

Marriage, she dosen't understand me and i dont know that she ever will but i don't mind. Unfortunatly we are different that way and i don't like to say anything because she gets upset when i tell her it dosen't matter to me. She is such a typical christian when it comes to wedding things.

She had a strange dream the other day. Guys and Dolls, the musical wedding. The whole time period and fashion, I don't know it's romanticized gangsters in pastels. I swore in highschool that I wouldn't do anything from that show again seeing as its in my humble opinion a trite romanticism of a real hard progressive time in history.

Her other idea is just going to Vegas. In witch case i would get to see P&T preform again but perhaps i can convince her to do a vacation instead of a wedding.

But eh...

In my dreams she'll figure out why she wants this and realize she already has it. Or maybe it will help to watch Bam's Unholy Union, it depicts a wonderful level of acceptance with doing everything differently on Missys part. Perhaps it will rub off on her.

I guess some real events: Last night was a lot of fun, we went down to Cheeseburger Paradise with Meesh, Christina, Will, and Jake (a new boyfriend of Christina's). Good drinks, good burgers, good friends, but the only problem was the band that play. We were seated pretty close to them so it was impossible for me with my bad hearing to have a conversation with anyone other than christina who was sitting next to me. The really neat thing was i felt that i was free to express my mind and say whatever i want while not getting in any real trouble with Cheebs maybe she is becoming more secure with the fact that i love her so much and loosening up a bit.

This morning we had breakfast/lunch with My parents and Zua. Its Joel's birthday today so we did a quick thing before I had work. Tuesday night we are going over to bambi lane to have dinner. Should be ok, She better not mention anything about a house/wedding though. Ella and dad would go nuts and be all over me about it and i'd have to try and explain my opinions on all that to them, witch never is comfortable because of course we disagree.

I guess that's all.

today i'm lookig forward to seeing Wirian but i'm sure i'll post about that later.