tonight dot broke up with me...I really thought this might be it oh well.I know no-one is this wonderful but I'm hoping that after tomorrow she'll help me get over it. I should have known it was coming seeing as i was looking forward to the coming month with her. now i'm going through all the things i didn't get around to in my head. we went and saw sin city last night which rocked by the way and i almost cracked and told everyone i was envious of a show they where going to see instead I commented again on how the band calmed me to the point where i want to thrash. additonallyI will never get to watch dot see neil hamburger. I will never again receive the kiss of pure comfort. I'm going to have to move. I won't be able to surprise her with a science garden. my mom is going to be pissed that i have to leave my job. the military channel won't be as much fun as depressing. WE won't overcome my problems. there will be no house. only onerios will get this and i don't expect anyone will read it but the preverbal onion is cored the canadian beetle is fiction and love triumphs again. before i keep writing forever i better watch high fidelity. I highly recommend it to help you over a relationship. what's the good news? you ask.. I feel art brewing. as a side note I don't know anybody else who is really this way but if you are out here let me know in a comment: does anybody else wish breakups happened followed by all the last times something happens instead of the other way around?
I'm still ranting/thinking sorry.
was:
i can't believe that what i feel is really happening to me
make it hurt
and point the finger at my insecurities
well i guess i just don't understand about those complexities in your mind
and i guess i just don't understand why this world seems so unkind
maybe. maybe just once. i get what's coming
maybe. maybe just once. i get what's coming to me
so once again the way you feel will never ever stay the same
and i'm to blame
i wonder just who made the rules up for this game
well i guess i just don't understand about what you want and what you need
and i guess i just don't understand about how it has to be
you sat down on this bed and you said
Christ, what the hell do you think this place is
you know
he just couldn't believe it
and i said
i don't know but it sure is something different
so go ahead
you say those thousand things you think you have to say
look at me
and tell me love's not such a hard word anyway
well how can you count on me i thought you realized for sure
and how can you just believe
i thought i deserved just a little more
oh God
oh what's coming to me
Slippery angels gone astray
Holy man can you say
I pledge allegiance to this array of
Insanity destruction and decay
Uzi merciless girl
Where do you land the man of this world
We're stripped down to bleeding or dying
scrawling on walls meaningless words
is:
angel wont you call me
could i be the only
though i am a lost cause
angel won't you call me
waiting for a sweet breeze
read it in the tea leaves
saw them crown you may queen
heard you sing the sweetest theme
but i've been so unbridled
i fled in the face of my rival
well i felt this bad
at the back of my head
angel wont you call
so here i am in corduroys
caught it in your polaroid
thought it was an off night
caught in such a warm light
so angel wont you call me
could i be the only
though i am a lost cause
angel won't you call me
but i've been so unbridled
i fled in the face of my rival
well i felt this bad
at the back of my head
angel wont you call
julie with this thorn in your side and you don't know why
julie dips her toe in the tide and you don't know why
well she don't know why she got all dolled up for a suicide
when the stage lights dimmed on the fading scrim it was morning before the cheering died
is it too late to tell you that I
I don't mind
